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Let's Celebrate!

🙌It's been a week since NastyLand was released, and it just hit 10k views and nearly 2k downloads!💕
💝The ratings function for the game is now reactivated.👍 
⬇⬇Developer's notes💬⬇⬇
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It's been just seven days and it hit the number that it would take 5 months to reach before! HOORAY!
This is definitely way better than my expectation!!
Although I'm still anxious, but it's definitely worth celebrating a lot!
In the nearly 2 years that the project was forcedly to put to stop, I learned a lot and therefore NastyLand had improved a lot.
I've been refining the interfaces in nonstop, and the story was always being rewritten, improving, completing too!
It's really good to see that my effort all turned to something I can see.
Although NastyLand has a lot of obstacles to go through, but I believe that we can do it!
GO NASTYLAND 2025!!
I guess we'll see each other next time when it hit 5k downloads? Hehe

⬇⬇Personal and more negative part.💬⬇⬇
Honestly, I've become extremely paranoid in the near two years when the project was put down. The anxiety, pessimism and perfectionism inside me keep making me think that NastyLand is not good enough, not even to be put out as a DEMO.
I eventually published it in the last week but honestly, it was because that I felt I've been silent for too long. I seemed to be always piling the consequences of other people's faults on own back, I feel I can't do that anymore.
These twenty months has been really stressful for me. I always feel that I can't do anything right, and I always feel that NastyLand wasn't good enough.
Maybe I was born a performer. I need audience desperately, til now I still do. Otherwise I just start to feel that everything I do is pointless and meaningless. And I was basically keeps falling on this same rabbit hole in the past time with nobody able to see my work.
The project would probably be long gone if not for my partner/boyfriend 虎秀才, let's thank him for a bit, haha.

中文EDIT

🙌纳斯蒂兰公开发布一周，现达到一万浏览和近两千下载！💕
💝游戏页面的评分功能已重新启用~👍 
⬇⬇下方作者留言💬⬇⬇
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短短七天就达到了以前五个月才有的浏览与下载量！HOORAY！
这次的发布比预期效果好很多！！ 
虽然还是很焦虑哈哈，但这肯定是非常值得高兴的事。
在因为以前的事而被迫停止的这近两年来，我学习到了很多，纳斯蒂兰也进步了很多。
这期间我不断地在改进菜单界面，剧情也经历了一次次重写、改进、完善。
看到自己的努力终于有了可见的反馈，感觉真的很好。
纳斯蒂兰还有很多障碍需要攻破，但我相信我们能做到的！
GO NASTYLAND 2025！！
下次，达到五千下载的时候再见吧？哈哈。

⬇⬇也许有些个人&负面的部分⬇⬇

说实话，在这一年多的时间里，我逐渐变得偏执。心里的焦虑、悲观与完美主义不断地让我觉得纳斯蒂兰还不够好，远远不够可以发出去的地步，哪怕是作为demo都不可以。

在一周前最终决定发布出来，其实是觉得自己实在沉默太久了。好像总是在把别人的错造成的后果累在自己背上，我认为我不能再那样了。

这一年多来真的很煎熬。总觉得自己什么都做不好，游戏方方面面都不够好之类的。

可能我是表演型人格吧。我总是需要观众，现在也是，否则我就会觉得自己做的一切好像都没有意义。而这一年多来一直都沉寂着，自己在做什么，也没有人能看得见。

如果不是我的爱人@虎秀才 方方面面的支持，纳斯蒂兰大概早就不存在了。我们一起感谢他吧，哈哈。